“There is a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and fixing everything. But it’s not giving up, it’s realizing you don’t need certain bullshit in your life. “
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WOW! WOW! WOW! I’m just… shocked… all I can say is WOW!
Ok so first we had a little argument about something then he calls me, tells me that he didn’t remember that I was mad, then asks me to keep track of the Yankees score for him.
Ok first of all if you can’t remember something that happened a half an hour before- you just didn’t even give a shit. That is how I see it and that’s exactly how it is. He had the fucking AUDACITY to tell me in my face that he didn’t remember that I was mad at him. How the fuck is that supposed to make me feel?
FUCK! I can’t believe this shit.
Then I asked him- “is that what you called me for? (to ask me to keep track of the Yankees score?)”… any other other fucking guy would have said; “of course not!- I love you”… NOPE! not him. Instead he said “yes baby- I’m sorry”.
God I am so angry at myself. I really am. I am angry because I allow this shit to touch me and maybe I shouldn’t give a fuck. God- I’m so fucking hurt & fucking angry. 
Whatever… it’s okay.
This is the LAST time. I promise… swear on my soul… my life… my everything… IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN!
How will I manage that?.. I’ll find a way… you know what they say.. NOBODY can hurt you without your permission.
Status: FUCK IT!
