Ok so… Last night I made mental plans of spending the whole day with my boyfriend. Today I was at work and ussually my best friend stops by every Wednesday to visit me and go to her favorite club. Ussually I spend some time with her, etc…
My boyfriend mentioned that he would like to spend the day with me today, so of course stupid me I tell my best friend that I would not be able to spend too much time with her. Since I am at work, Michael decided to go out with his mother- which is totally fine considering it is Wednesday and it’s his day off and that he doesn’t really spend time with her. I thought that maybe right after taking her wherever he took her, he would come back to me. I called him and he didn’t pick up, and I thought it was fine because maybe he had to take care of something important. I left him a message telling him to call me before 4:00pm because I had a manicure appointment at 4:15. He called me at approximaely 3:52pm and told me the following…
“cought you right before you left!”
I was very happy to hear his voice and thought that finally he would be mine. I even considered not going to the appointment.
I heard music on the background and asked where he was…
are you ready for this?!?!.. here it goes…
he tells me in the CALMEST voice that you can imagine… “I am at the beach playing dominoes”
I can’t explaint he expression in my face… my jaw just dropped.. I was a little surprised… nono- VERY FUCKING SURPRISED!…
My mind went at about 1000 miles per hour.. just thoughts… many different kind of thoughts…
All that I managed to bring out of my mouth was; .. “AT THE BEACH?!?!?!?!?!?!”
AGAIN… with a calm there-is-nothing-wrong-stupid-fucking-TONE he said… “yes.. it’s a beautiful day u know…”
My jaw almost touched the floor. I wanted to.. I don’t even know what I wanted to do. So many emotions at once… all I could manage to say is that I had to go…
It’s a beautiful day.. ok.. uhh SO FUCKING WHAT?.. do you only remember you have a girl on ugly days?.. I mean let me know so I can get things straight!
It’s not about the beach.. it’s not about the dominoes…
It’s about not picking up my call and being smart enough to call me a minute before I leave just so u wouldnt have to waste much of your precious time…
It’s about not telling me you are going to go somewhere and leaving me like a stupid bitch waiting for you and cancelling my plans FOR YOU! WHEN YOU ARE GOING TO BE IN THE FUCKING BEACH HAVING A GOOD TIME…fuck that!
I can’t believe ME… seriously. It’s all my fault… it is.
So… new lesson in my life… thank you Michael!
I SHALL ALWAYS PUT MYSELF FIRST! ALWAYS! NO EXCEPTIONS!…
Status: rainy… but oh well.. shit happens..mostly to me!
