Life goes on… Friday, Aug 1 2008

I like simple relationships.. I do. I like relationshipts that offer me estability, reassurance, and respect.

I like FAIR relationships; not relationships in which everything is “one way”.

The relationship with Michael is not that one.

I’ve come to realize that fighting for him is useless. He finds a way of breaking down every single barrier that I build for him. He does it on purpose every time.
99% percent of our problems are other women. He is one of those men that have a million women trying to fuck him and I’m ussually very good in keeping them away, but every time I close one door, he opens three more for them. I can’t live like this. I can’t live being afraid that I might lose him to someone else. Especially if he doesn’t do absolutely anything to put them in their place.

I’m talking about women that have lied to break us up. Women that have told very serious lies, that can actually end twhat we have. He lets them do all that. He likes it.

Sorry… I’m not up for that.

I’m a beautiful, smart, funny, and FUCKING AMAZING girl who can find any guy she wants. A guy that would always give me my place and let every other woman know that I am number one.

That being said… it’s really over.

If he has a problem saying “no”, I have a problem saying “yes”. Therefore, I guess we are not meant to be.

He gets away with alot of shit, which is why he doesn’t take it serious when I tell him ” it’s over”. Well.. its really is over.

I love him… I love him more than anything in this world. I just can’t fight against an army by myself… and I wont. I have a lot of problems that are far more important then worrying about the fact that he fails to give me my place. I guess he is weak and I happen to like strong men.

Sad endings are the worst… especially when its something beautiful that ends because of something so simple.

But… I’m a woman… and a woman finds her place when her man doesn’t want to give it to her. I’ll find mine eventually.

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Finally someone said something… Friday, Aug 1 2008

I recently discovered a great blog.

Audaciousaria.wordpress.com

I like her writing alot. I like it so much that when I discovered it, I read every single blog in exactly one day. She is woman who has gone through alot of shit in her life, and I have come to admire her courage and strength.

She recently wrote a post that I think all of us (bloggers) can relate to. Apparently some people left stupid comments on her blog and she got sick of it, so she wrote the following:

What the fuck is up the past few days with some people & their comments. Not everyone, but fuck, there’s been a good few who’ve left me pissed the fuck off, so much so I haven’t even published some of them. All the nit picking & the nosing on in like it’s a free for all. Yes, it’s a blog that’s out there for the world & their dog to read but shit me a coconut, y’all don’t like what you’re reading – Fuck off.

Yeah, that’s right. I don’t bite my tongue for nobody.

Unlike a lot of folk, I think before I open my mouth – seriously, you think I haven’t wondered about who might be reading?! I may write publicly, but I also write anonymously & you know what, I couldn’t care less who the fuck reads. Hell, I’d happily invite my family, friends, abuser(s), everyone who’s ever crossed my path to come along & join in. Why the hell not ahe?! Nothing like a good ol’ party.

The topics I choose to write about are my choice. I don’t need anyone feeding me lines or telling what I should or shouldn’t write about. Lets bare in mind, I’ve been talking the same shit since day one, so y’all gonna nit pick, do it fucking properly & start back in August 2007.

Me – Author :You – Reader

My blog. My words.

Now fuck off

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I don’t have many readers, at least not many of them actually comment, but I have received some nasty comments that i really don’t appreciate.

I want  all of  you to know that I write this blog FOR ME. I don’t care what anyone thinks about ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY anything i write here. I don’t know you, therefore, I don’t give a fuck about what you think about what/how I write.

The funny thing is that some people have something stupid to say about my blog, but they keep coming for some FUCKING STRANGE REASON.

Like she said… FUCK OFF! Don’t come here if you don’t like the content.

Keep in mind that everyone is different, and that’s why they have different beliefs and ideas. Just because i don’t believe in the things that you do, doesn’t mean that I’m wrong. It simply means that I am DIFFERENT.

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